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I finished playing the Mass Effect series yesterday…

…and I was extremely heart-broken because I had to wait until the 3rd game for the maleShep/Kaidan romance to surface just for it to be taken away by the ending. Kaidan was so happy to have found someone:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xUFB1BNZFA

He finally worked up the courage to come to my room for drinks and sex and then we headed off for the final battle in the morning. All during our last full conversation and last kiss, all you can imagine is Kaidan trying not to cry (I’m crying enough for the both of us just watching it):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBe7Xa5ZEgk

After the last battle, I just leave. Kaidan can’t come with me and I’m left with the saddest, most heart-wrenching Kaidan faces:image

And then we finally say the words I’ve been waiting the entire series to hear:

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And then I don’t come back. There is no option where Kaidan isn’t going to be fucked over by the decisions I’m forced to make. It killed me that Kaidan wasted all of ME2 hating me for being with Cerberus when I didn’t want Shepard to be with Cerberus either and now he will always be hanging up my name on the dead people wall, no matter how much I want Kaidan to live a long, happy life with maleShep:

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Lots of internet posts call him whiny and kill him off in ME1, but I don’t think I can play it again and not choose Kaidan (Where are the real-world Kaidans? Why can’t I find a guy like that?). Apart from being one of only two men maleShep can romance, I don’t think anyone else shares as much of a deep connection with Shepard as Kaidan does (this person knows what I’m talking about —> http://venturebeat.com/2013/02/25/the-right-choice-in-mass-effect-kaiden-alenko/). This couple, prematurely ripped apart, has left me so emotionally raw, I feel cheated; I mean so much for all that “have hope” stuff we’ve been hearing throughout all three games. I can’t give Kaidan what he wants for longer than a day or spare him the resulting heartbreak because Shepard is not allowed to survive the ending (forget the so-called “perfect ending”; that was a cop-out of being completely heartless). There seems to be a pattern for gay characters in games/movies/shows - they never get the “happy ending,” at least not in the way straight characters (more often than not) get to experience (guy meets girl, loves girl, loses girl, gets girl back, lives happily ever after with girl). I think you deserved better Kaidan.

Maybe after playing like 12 other games (to distance myself from this sad, sad ending), I can pretend my next ME playthrough with end with Kaidan’s “chance to hold Shepard again.”

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haveyouheardaboutsterek:

thegeekiary:

There’s no denying that Teen Wolf started out with great potential. It was seen as the go-to show for interesting characters and non-stereotypical LGBT representation. Creator Jeff Davis and TPTB were open to fan interaction and even talked about different ships, something that led to the ‘Jeff Davis is a gift’ stance in the fandom. While the show saw increased popularity during the first three years, Season 4 hasn’t been performing comparatively well. So, what went wrong?
I can’t say that I’ll be able to mention all the things that could’ve influenced the current ratings for Season 4 of Teen Wolf. Nonetheless, I have listed some things I think could’ve sparked the dwindling interest in the werewolf show.
READ MORE: Why Are Teen Wolf Season 4 Ratings Slipping?

Accurate.

all true

haveyouheardaboutsterek:

thegeekiary:

There’s no denying that Teen Wolf started out with great potential. It was seen as the go-to show for interesting characters and non-stereotypical LGBT representation. Creator Jeff Davis and TPTB were open to fan interaction and even talked about different ships, something that led to the ‘Jeff Davis is a gift’ stance in the fandom. While the show saw increased popularity during the first three years, Season 4 hasn’t been performing comparatively well. So, what went wrong?

I can’t say that I’ll be able to mention all the things that could’ve influenced the current ratings for Season 4 of Teen Wolf. Nonetheless, I have listed some things I think could’ve sparked the dwindling interest in the werewolf show.

READ MORE: Why Are Teen Wolf Season 4 Ratings Slipping?

Accurate.

all true

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pinofad:

i find it so awkward talking to people my age because they all tell me stories about boys and parties and drinking and going out til 1am and im sitting here in purple owl pyjamas, with pig bed socks on crying because two men who may or may not be gay did something cute in a fanfiction im reading

So I’m not the only one?

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thatblondeperson:

dylanohcryin:

do u ever daydream about decorating ur first apartment bc i do

ALL
THE
TIME

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standardgaydad:

u know u fucked up when u still haven’t slept yet and u hear birds chirping outside

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dailytylerhoechlin:

Tyler Hoechlin for August Man Malaysia August 2014 issue.(x)

So damn adorable

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Recipe for an Orchestra

  • Conductor: baton, attitude, black magic, let sit for 30-60 years
  • Violin: Soulless eyes, rosin, callouses, nice hair
  • Viola: Callouses, tears, repeat "It's not a violin" 1,000+ times while it forms
  • Cello: Haunting screams, blood, the souls of small children, with a pinch of callouses
  • Double Bass: Unfortunately small hands, good fashion sense, shy smiles
  • Percussion: Attractive face, sweaty palms, a curse to follow them through their life
  • Piccolo: ears of steel, utter insanity, pretty hands
  • Flute: Lush hair, independence, lack of enough practice time
  • Clarinet: Sass, despair, raw talent
  • Bass Clarinet: spooky, haunting eyes that entangle you in mystery, nachos
  • Oboe: Self hatred, more self hatred, frightening talent with sharp objects.
  • Bassoon: eternal damnation, cute face, social ineptness, mystery ingredient
  • Horn: Beautiful hair, pretty eyes, frighteningly quiet- possibly murderous intent
  • Trumpet: Big ego, Dazzling smile, Strong opinions (good and/or bad)
  • Trombone: Extreme body type in any sense, uncooperative hair, nocturnal tendencies
  • Tuba: Constant hunger, strong lungs, willpower of an ox
  • Harp: pure gold, penetrating eyes that look at your soul, a hint of danger beneath a layer of shyness
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